know your worth

so i stayed up last night talking to a relatively new acquaintance/friend/business partner/dude in my life for a couple of hours (yeah, like that high school shit)..im not gonna lie i was lightweight crushin' on this foo for a couple weeks now..and after our first late night, all night phone convo a few weeks ago, i seriously thought it was just sexual tension but after last night, i have to say that i actually care to know more about what he's actually about, his struggles, his triumphs, his past, his present and what he wants to do in the future. hah, go figure..

and so this morning i woke up (not so tired, surprisingly) full of thoughts, questions, reflections and inflections from our conversation but this def poet piece by gemineye really stuck with me..and got me thinkin' about my current (keyword: current) ability and/or inability to connect on a much more deeper level with the new people in my life..and more specifically the men in my life..

the dopest lines:

"While they are trying to get deeply embedded
In the fine fibers of your bedsheets,
I’m trying to find and define the fibers of which your mind speaks..."

and maybe the tension still exists but freals im more attracted to the "heartbeats of his inner rhythms" according to gem..or so to speak..its just too bad this foo is havin' too much fun wildin' out with his sidechicks (even though he denies it) or even as a sideman..all caught up (usher style), i cant blame him though..i had my phase too, once upon a time..

but on the real, there are too many fine brothas out there who don't realize their worth or even their potential to be in healthy, positive, forward-moving relationships/partnerships..too many busters are caught up with the short game and not playin' it smart for the entire series..and eventually the championship, if you will..

a word to my brothas: know your worth. keep it real and we'll love you for it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kPSHh7ebhp0&feature=youtube_gdata_player

“Penny For Your Thoughts” – Gemineye
Can I offer you a penny for your thoughts?
As a matter of fact, how about three?
One penny for you, one penny for me,
And one penny for our minds engaged not so sexually.
Getting intimately closer as we approach the
Climatic altitude of nude, mental, sensational… conversation.

Because I’m trying to get to know everything about you
From the neck… UP.

So these are not your typical, sexual, poetical prose.
I’m trying to close the door on that all too familiar freaky foreplay game.
With which most guys have chose to approach you.
While they are trying to get deeply embedded
In the fine fibers of your bedsheets,
I’m trying to find and define the fibers of which your mind speaks.
I want to engage you
By putting a two karat solitaire diamond ON YOUR MIND
Marrying your every thought!

I want to lick every inch of every crevasse
So I can get an oral fix from each oriface
And taste you passionate IMAGINATION.

I’d rather be naked and exposed, holding you
As we’re lying and you’re crying
While confiding and describing the tough times you’ve had in life
And how you don’t know
If you can keep a relationship long enough to be somebody’s wife.

I wanna feel the heartbeat of all your inner rhythms
As they lead me toward your warm, wet, waterfalls of feminine thoughts.
…And I’ll swin in them.
From backstrokes, to breaststrokes,
I’m penetrating every entrance… to your mind.
Taking my time to find out everything about you.

Did I ever tell you about how you
Fell asleep in my presence?
And your mere essence
Kept me awake for hours
As I cowered with this feeling
Of sexually unadulterated mental connection?

And as you lay by my side
I pushed the blinds aside
And took the time in the moonlight of that night
To count 72 eyelashes
On the upper eyelid of your right eye!
Because when you sleep
Your eyes remain open slightly.

And while we probably moves in too quickly into some sexual shit
I’ve always cared more about the explicitly illicitness
That came from between your lips.. meaning your voice.

So now I am standing here
Ready to trade in all the sexual acts that we’ve preformed
For the chance to reform the very foundation
And the basis of our relationship.

So I reiterate my opening statement
And I offer you another penny for your thoughts!