june11|before you walk outta my life

today leadership institute ends. i am now supposed to be fully equipped with the tools to execute my duties as an exec to the student body. its interesting to now have a "seat at the table" with high powered officials within this university. i see the difficulties of this position but the beauty and strength one can really utilize to facilitate positive social change that is real. today, i felt what having a "seat at the table" was about..its crucial to make sure that students not only own those seats..its important that we know HOW the people who sit in those seats are sittin in em. people can be really manipulative and two faced..damn. thats unfortunate.

on another note...im an orange (according to true colors). ive done that activity before and i was an orange then so i guess its pretty consistent. who knows? oranges:

*at work, i am bored and restless with jobs that are routine and structured and satisfied in careers that allow me independence and freedom, while utilizing my physical coordination and my love of tools. i view any kind of tool as an extension of self. i am a natural performer.

*in love, i seek relationship with shared activities and interests. with my mate, i like to explore new ways to energize the relationship. as a lover, i need to be bold and i thrive on physical contact. i enjoy giving extravagant gifts that bring obvious pleasure to my loved one.

*in childhood, of all types of children, i had the most difficult time fitting into academic routine. i learn by doing and experiencing, rather than by listening and reading. i need physical involvement in the learning process and am motivated by my own natural competitive nature and sense of fun.

just another horoscope? i think not.

krishna from pca (hella high school times) hit me up today..craaaazy!?!

so, i guess we werent that tight...hmm that sucks. were losing touch..distance is unfortunately getting in between our friendship..hmm...maybe thats a good thing right now because im too busy to think about that right now anyways. reverting back to my old ways..my old self..me. sucks that i have to find out about whats goin down in yo life from other people or even gchat statuses. hella whack but i guess its my fault too for not going out of my way to ask..even though sometimes i feel like youre not being completely honest or completely real with me. like i ask how you are and you dont really respond. i dont get it..but its okay because i never understood you anyways..although i have sincerely tried to understand you..youre too good for your own good big head..get over yourself...come back to earth and let's kick it.

this song made me think about it today..old school joint by monica...before you walk outta my life:

Oh oh oh, oh yeah yes, oh oh oh, my, my 

Here we are face to face 

With the memories that can’t be erased 

Although we need each other 

Things that changed, it’s not the same

Sometimes it makes me wonder 

Where would I be, if you hadn’t discovered 

Which I did, inside of me 

I know there was something, that we could compare 

Oh, well, i, never meant to cause you no pain 

I just wanna go back to being the same 

Well i, only wanna make things right 

Before you walk out of my life 

Remembering the good times 

From a portrait hung on high

It’s filled with so much color 

And the laughter we left behind

I made the choice and you couldn’t decide 

I made the choice, I was wrong you were right 

Deep down inside, I apologize 

Though I made plans with you 

To always have time for you (before you walk out of my life) 

I guess it’s true, cannot live without you 

Don’t ever go away, ooh oh yeah

Before you walk out of my life


bb@cali..you hella INTRIGUE me..