i felt like takin the bus today..so i did. its amazing how UNreliable the bus can be at times..and even more so how tha bus can come during the times you need it the most.
summer's been interesting..ive had a lot of time to just be by myself, think about what really matters in my life and regain my independence. it feels really good to be self dependent again..sometimes being so decolonized in mind, body and soul can be very lonely. i realized today that things are different..and are going to continue to be different but regardless i still catch myself thinkin about how things were two, three years ago and how things are now. fallin out's arent fun..never are they kool. i just want to leave things..remembering how they once were..and just come to terms with the fact that we've just grown in different ways..we've experienced different things this year. thats definitely not a bad thing especially since we've devoted our time to takin a crack at tryna save the world through organizing for our communities..its just different now.
in lots of ways i think im starting to miss other things too...like talkin on aim till four, five in the morning about whatever the fuck we wanted because we were just dope like that, mid-day curry, early morning donuts, and other random shit..today was a more somber day, most def. embracing change isnt always easy but its the only way we can truly progress in this world, in our work, in our lives and within our selves..no matter how scary or challenging..and honestly whose to say that things can't just go back to "normal" or even get better later on?
i think i need to detox again..next week maybe?
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